Today was just one of those days. With the incredible stress of my school and work situation (the quality of my work is sucking, I seem to have lost the ability to form coherent sentences on subjects I'm supposed to know something about, etc), I start to wonder what the hell I'm even doing here. I know everyone comes across this in a new situation at some point or another. Usually when things are going the worst for you, this thought will start to creep its way into your mind. It's gotten to the point where sometimes I'm even convinced that a mistake was made in letting me come here. This may sound like paranoia (and probably is), but the feeling is real. I seem to be psyching myself out to some degree, and you can start to see a snowball effect. I don't write a very good paper (stress level goes up), now I doubt my own ideas (stress level goes up), now I don't even want to say anything out loud. I need some sort of outlet to calm down about this. This is where you guys would come in. Being able to talk to you is great, but sometimes you just need to chill with people and not really talk, like watch a movie or just eat together. I'm forming some relationships here, but with being gone every other weekend, I feel a little behind everyone else. There are so few people that I am comfortable just calling up out of the blue to just chill. There is one guy that I would say I'm closest to, but because of potential complications, our friendship has had to change a bit. There is a time line for this set of rules, but currently it sucks.
This morning for some reason I was thinking about getting margaritas at Trudy's, and that one little thing that I used to do in Austin made me so homesick. I really just want to call you up and meet you at Trudy's. Does that sound good?